October 2025
10.23.2025
I've been going through a lot emotionally lately. It's all for the best, tearing down walls that have been keeping me stuck in loneliness but goddamn does it hurt.
10.14.2025
I have so many people at school who ask me for help with stuff now, I'm so happy!
10.10.2025
I just spent all of yesterday making a game engine for children do things it was not designed to do (generating tilemaps directly from a hex buffer), then lost all of my code. :') It was fun though, and now I understand how it works so I'll be able to remake it without much difficulty. I only have one assignment to do for school right now, I was having a hard time finding the motivation to do it although I think I'm starting to get into it.
10.5.2025
At a swap meet yesterday, I got a leather notebook cover and I'm so happy about it!! I had bought a cheap cover made of fabric-covered cardboard, which honestly held up pretty well for a couple years but had started looking gross and beat-up. Leather is easier to clean, and yeah it can get worn but in a romanticizable way lol. The new cover is quite a bit taller than the notebooks I'd been using, but they still fit and it's not a terrible inconvenience. I'll just get the taller ones when I run out.
Unrelatedly, it's interesting how all three of the Unitarian Universalist churches in my city only do services on Sunday mornings. I would have thought it'd be more common for them to go for a different time slot.
10.4.2025
I found this amazing Christmas radio station and I'm having such a good time listening to it.
10.03.2025
Aughuh I have such mixed feelings about being into computer science. Yeah, I picked it as my major because I know a lot of people who work in computing who are super interesting, passionate, inspiring people but conversely there are also a LOT of people there who seem to have no personality whatsoever. And that's not something I've experienced working in education or retail. Granted, I haven't worked with these people, so what they choose to write about or what they talk about when I meet them on a one-off occasion don't necessarily reflect what they're like as a person.